June 3, 2013
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Letting Go of the Past
When I read that Xanga was shutting down, I immediately started thinking about all of my old entries on Xanga and what I should do with them. I’ve been on Xanga since high school – that’s more than ten years ago. This was before college, before my first pseudo boyfriend, before my first kiss, my mom died, etc…it seems like this blog started way before my life really began.
I originally thought I would download my archive and keep them somewhere like an external hard drive. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that it would be better if I just let it all get deleted. I don’t need memories of a painful past. My life up to this point has just been a series of painful major events. One major sad event takes many years of faintly happy events to wash it out. Your saddest events never go away in the end either- all that happens is that you feel less and less as you age. As you get older and older – things affect you less and less. Soon we can barely remember what true love feels like, or what it feels like to talk to your mom about something that’s been bothering you…things like that just fade away. Like life. We just all fade away until we’re nothing but ghosts and lost memories.
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Just in case, you should download your files. If you don’t need them, leave them in a closet. Perhaps one day you will be curious to look back.
Painful things, sadness are part of life. No way of denying them and avoid them. If you decide to let go, it is your call of course,Nice meeting you for a short time.
Agreed. You should definitely keep your writing archived. There is a lot of good writing there. It should not be destroyed. Even if you never read it again, it may be of interest to someone else or even yourself in the future. If my family members kept journals I would have been interested in reading them (and my family members don’t have nearly as interesting writing voice as yours)!